Tired

I'm tired of EVERYTHING.
I am not myself anymore, and it's rare to see a smile on me. The capitalist changed me.
I do not smile when there is anything jovious, instead, i smile when it's required.
A customer commented, "You have a wonderful smile" and i wondered if he wanted more discount.
What ever things any1 said, i take it with doubts. Friends...can they to be trusted also? Are they just holding on to the phrase so that you can take part in their 'shield me' scheme? its a possibility.

I'm tired of not being trusted.
I love him the most, but he did not understand me. he thought i was tired of loving him..i wasnt. I was tired of my life, my ruin life. a life that doesnt belong to me, it belongs to the capitalist.

I'm tired fighting for time with my family...I've changed since the 'arrival' of my baby brother and my love. i no longer see work and money, i see family love. material needs are only external. Many said that money is essential for survival, but they ignored that it is also not everything a human needs. Shanghai can be yours, but health and family might not be there for u.